Buah Hati Pengarang Jantung

Without realizing,
Im buying two of the same thing.
Nutella tasted bland,
because you were sweeter.
You're God's best creation,
since sms, internet and beef curry.
You make showing my horrible pictures fun,
just to see you laugh.
You make me say goodnight and i love you early,
just to avoid missing them when credit runs out.
Realize theres always something in life worth living for,
and you becoming the recipe for my good sleep.
Love of perfumes and allergy to bodyshops,
and having victoriasecret a regular body scent?

*Charlie Callas feat Sean Marshall-i love you too
p.s. sry for falling asleep twice

Heartbeat

You want to argue with me. Im not that bored.

I apologize without understanding. Im not that bright.

I desire to go back to where we began.


You are crying again. I fail to give you comfort.

Im shaking my head again (disapproving of my actions), thats that much regret.

Loves progression makes it already hard to turn back, but Im unable to move on.


My body still wont leave because of what is currently in my chest. Two hearts can solve many problems.

How many tears has love made us shed?


Your eyes are brimming with beauty to carry away my heartbeat.


In this way, you draw closer to take away my heartbeat.

Time has turned back to the beginning. Can you give me a moment?


Im waiting for whatever day when you will also remember

That happiness hovering in your memories.

*lee hom-heartbeat

p.s. when u feel like it.

Inherited

Was bored and thalassemia. Dad and sis have it in their gene. Dear god.

"...group of blood disorders characterized by a deficiency of hemoglobin, the blood protein that transports oxygen to the tissues. Hemoglobin is composed of a porphyrin compound (heme) and globin. Thalassemia is caused by genetically determined abnormalities in the synthesis of one or more of the polypeptide chains of globin. The various forms of the disorder are distinguished by different combinations of three variables: the particular polypeptide chain or chains that are affected; whether the affected chains are synthesized in sharply reduced quantities or not synthesized at all; and whether the disorder is inherited from one parent (heterozygous) or from both parents (homozygous)." (Dictionary.com)

Tale from her world

Happened at the Yayasan underground parking lot. A friend of mine was with her husband in their car searching for parking. It was a fairly busy day with cars lined up to enter and leave the parking lot. At one moment, there was another car (person A), which was rushing to get out. Then there was another car behind A (car B).

As my friend was giving way for the cars to pass her, she waved her hand signaling the other cars to pass her. Suddenly the person at car B ran amok. In car B was a man, his wife and his children. So my friend asked the guy what the problem was. The guy replied that he thought the way my friend signaled was rude.

The guy made a turnaround and stopped his car in front of my friend's car. He went out and approached my friend's car. He looked fierce. My friend was alarmed and frightened, my friend's husband came out of the car to face the angry guy. Face to face, my friend's husband was much taller than the guy.

All of a sudden the angry guy shouted asking why the husband was approaching him. Much to his bravery to approach my friend's car, he was shaken facing my friend's husband. At the same time, my friend, seeing the angry guy together with his wife making threats, alerted the security guard. She said that a Malay guy was making problems. The guy probably heard the conversation and shouted "awueh Melayu Islam Beraja!" (yes a Malay, Muslim and under a Monarch)

The angry guy teased my friend's husband saying he should be ashamed having a wife like that. My friend's husband replied why should his wife be ashamed of asking for help when they are threatened like that. Then he added "its u who should be ashamed, claiming you are a Melayu Islam Beraja, yet acting embarrassingly in front of your own children."

The security guard came and try to handle the situation nicely. After a period of calm was shown, the matter seemed solved. The security warned the angry guy not to tail my friend of start the argument outside again. Feeling that the matter was solved, my friend found a parking space and parked and went shopping.

Little do they know that when they return to their car, the angry guy had parked their car behind my friend's car, waiting for her. So another round of argument broke out, luckily just involving verbal abuses. My friend threatened to make a police report if the angry guy would not stop and go. Obviously, the guy had misunderstood my friend's intention of letting him pass his car earlier as a rude act.

My friend explained that she let him pass because car A was in a rush to go out. As she said this, the angry guy's wife quickly advised her husband to leave the matter. She was concerned that my friend would make a police report.

The result - the guy left. My friend made a police report. Verdict - lost in translation.

*Sheila on 7-tunjuk aku satu bintang.

The Things I Want U To Hear Other Than Sexy Love

My playlist, thought they're good nuff for you to listen while watching CNN alone on a sunny Sunday afternoon eating raw cheese with a Coke cuppa, seeing the other half in everything you do:

1)Daftpunk-something about us
2)Estrella-ternyata
3)D'Cinnamons - Ku Yakin Cinta
4)Imran Ajmain-seribu tahun
5)Chrisette Michele-best of me
6)Sheila Majid-ku mohon
7)Fun factory-love you
8)Ten2five-i do
9)Thiving ivory-angels on the moon
10)Matt nathanson-comeon get higher

Hope you enjoy them... hehe...
*estrella-ternyata
p.s. lookin fine... yea she's no you.

I don't like living under your spotlight

HIM : sometimes i want to see your smile,
i wish it more than the stars and rainbows.
sometimes i want to see your smile,
just to see how far i could go mellow.

go on and open up inside,
let the music find the reasons.
go on and open up inside,
let love resonate and bring us a little bit closer.

HER : you want it more than stars and rainbows,
that you can go dreamy and mellow.
my love for you is blind my dearest weirdo,
love for you so strong that nothing could overshadow.

*Jeniffer Hudson-spotlight
Be a man, tell her everything, even if it hurts.
Is he that hot? Chace... =)

Sadness and Anguish

Cant help but get caught up in the tide of emotions over whats going on in Gaza... Just watch al-Jazeera. Why on earth are soldiers taking aim at medical personnel? why are UN schools and civilian houses being targeted? Its debilitating really... Hearing families being killed, some leaving the small ones alone. Hamas, Fatah, Middle east and the international community all have roles to play, but i consider it a matter of historical accident with innocent civilians as the major casualties. Palestine attacks, Israel represses, the rest creating bonfires, the cycle continues. Territorial boundaries are a mess. Resolutions are ignored. Do something OPEC, and who cares if US vetoed anything after that. Its now a battle of Karameh.

By the way i think the Godfather was a Jew...
Free Palestine, Free Gaza, Prevent Genocide.
*Hold on - Jet

Memories From New Orleans

Starting over isnt about endings, but new beginnings.
A clean canvas means we can paint any masterpiece we dream.
Take pride in your survival, but dont be too proud to be helped.
A kite flies highest when the wind is strongest.
Take root where you are and you will grow.
You can blame or you can build, where do you want to be tomorrow?
You become smart when you learn from your mistakes.
Wise when you overcome them.
One breath... one moment... one caring heart... it makes a difference.
We are not separate from life, or each other, as we pretend to be.
It could be me tomorrow.

*Javier-crazy
Picture-Brunei's Biggest Gem-Jerudong Park
I miss you like crazy, every minute of everyday...hansons, awu moffatssss as the arguer protested. hehe =p

Adrenaline Factor

Love to jog. Physically, it makes a productive day feel complete. Mentally (besides vanity), for it to be able put things into perspective and clear thoughts for the hungry mind. Blame the BAPE pink shirt for making some people feel fat =) Health and vanity, its a good combination!

Thought dawn steps are much more satisfying, runs made after hearing the dusk prayer calls and sun sets up nicely above. Fresh air and humidity levels low, feel grateful to be able to do this. At 5 am its calmingly quiet. Felt that theres one traffic light, which more than often fails to work at this hour.

At 6 am, activities around BSB seems to generate as miss sunshine sets in. Run past, the old man whos always there now waves every now and then, the two ladies always waiting near the bus stop area now smile, the boys with their shuttlecocks and rackets at jubilee Park remind me of the Sidek lads, the ipod-running-kid always seems focused and the birds are getting positively more vocal each day.

Went to the river at Jubilee Park, cant help but be amazed by the flocks of birds resting or nesting at the mangrove trees. Gets most amazing each time the birds take off en masse, especially with beautiful sunset rays reflected on the water and in the background. Gonna visualize them with camera one day.

Art by Leoni Dafremov - She Left
*Al Green - lets stay together

Buenas Noches Hottie!

When the lamplight of the sun
first touched the dark
and rolling, sighing, seeking wave
first kissed the land
when the first drop of rain
met the very first leaf
that moment God chose you
and intended you for me
when that tiny living globe
formed in the dark
and with the rhythm of time and space
first beat of your heart
when God knit your limbs
and gave breath to your lungs
your days be ordained
and intended you to meet me
all praise to God
who created all things
who gave us life and gave us life again
who came here this day
to create this heart
to take two hearts and melt them into one
from the moment that my eyes
first saw your face
and you with an angel's voice
first spoke my name
when you first took my hand
I knew then
that i had to say *P.s.*

*My Girl and I OST-Dream of one summer night.
picture-ying and yang.

Firefly

I believed that you would
come for me and i waited

The firefly is stupid to just wait
for the ones who loves him

Just waiting for his destined love
the one he would give his life for

He has not changed a bit
he still wants to dance with her



*Paolo Nutini-rewind

Plz understand that i always intended a good outcome everytime we argue and not to make it worse so as we could sleep at ease without...

Remember the year when our country experienced a period of prolonged dry season? Could see then people at Jame Asr' mosque were taking ablutions at the water fountain... Couldnt help but smile thinking of god's wonders.

Life is good. Syukran.

Remembered an incident, fell from a bus an awarded with a fractured arm. Its funny actually, assure you the "life flashes in front of your eyes" thing is true. Well the story begins with the author in the bus and gossiping about stuffs (again!), then when destination was near, readied to come off without realizing bus was still moving...

The door opened and u guessed what happen. Was like a footage from a Bollywood movie, author was rolling a couple of times and (thank god!), like a footage from a Bollywood movie, author was still alive. Was lying on the floor, head inches from the moving tires of the bus. Composed self and sat for god-knows-how-long on the (luckily) empty road. It was at this period when author experienced "life flashes in front of your eyes" thingy.

Regained senses and composure after two road sweepers called, panic written all over their face. After saying author was alright, author smiled. Ended with all three having a good laugh. Walked home to a surprised mom - uniform shirt no longer resembling one, minor cuts all over, and a i-am-ok-smile. Hehe.

Had a cast next day but still had the mood playing monopoly with brother. Now remembered it was in the fasting month. Chillax!

Moral of the story - Do not waste water. =p

Picture - bleeding hearts. Trims Panda.
* Robert miles - children

Pick Up Lines!

Cant help but get amused with whats been said by some to get connected:

1) Whats a beautiful looking lady like u doing in a dirty mind of mine...

2) Not going home yet? (belum balik??)

3) Hey u look familiar, whats ur name?

4) Hey do u know where the place is? (also applies to time, person, etc)

5) Can i sit here? Is this space empty?

6) Do u come here often?

7) Speaking of the devil, or should i say "angel"?

8) What song is that?

9) What is your fav colour? Mine too...

10) Hi... Im ____ Can i Have ur number? (Direct yo)



*Sade-By your side
May a thorn sit among the roses?

HEY U F*** FACE! (R. Peters)

*DJ Sammy-heaven

Loud Sounding Nothing

:the lingo:

You want = you want
we need = i need
It's ur decision = the correct decision should be obvious by now
do what you want = you'll pay for this later
we need to talk = i need to complain
sure... go ahead = i don't want you to
im not upset = ofcourse im upset you moron!
you're so manly = you need a shave and you sweat a lot
you're certainly attentive = is sex all you want?!
im not emo! = im on my period
be romantic, turn off the lights = i have flabby thighs
the kitchen is so inconvenient = i want a new house!
do you love me? = im going to ask for something expensive
how much do you love me? = i did something today that you're not going to like
i'll be ready in a minute = kick off your shoes and find a good game on tv
is my butt fat? =tell me im beautiful
you have to learn to communicate... = just agree with me
are you listening to me? = (too late, you're dead)
yes = no
no = no
maybe = no
im sorry = you'll be sorry
nothing = everything
everything = PMS
nothing really = you're an asshole
i don't want to talk about it = go away, im still building up steam


location highway at gadong, Brunei Darussalam
*macy gray-i try

[I]Elalang

Datangnya duka di dalam hati,
Ingin menyatakan perasaan,
Yang datang dikala kesunyian...
Air mata jatuh tak terasa...

Demi harga diri yang amat besar,
Biarlah berdiam diri...
Kirimkan sebaris kata yang indah malam ini,
Biar bintang enggan tersenyum...

Inginnya menyatakan hasrat,
Jika bertemu...
Namun Jiwa tak sanggup menggapai,
Makna kehadiranmu...

Dahan yang kering akan patah pada masanya,
Begitu juga dedaunan akan layu tanpa hujan...
Biarkan langkah menentukan kisah ini,
Semoga awak ada di antara luasnya padang ilalang...


*Killswitch engage-the end of heartache
location: Lumut Beach, Brunei Darussalam

Minted Deeper

If before she herself wept,

Love for her had caused my tears to flow,

I should have lightened my heart before repentance (choked it),

But she wept first,

Her tears excited mine,

The merit,

I cried,

Belongs to the predecessor.

*Jerry C-canon rock
'Tudong Dulang' (food covers), Tamu Kianggeh, Brunei Darussalam

2AM-This Song

Even though I want to buy you a pretty necklace
Even though I want to take you out on a ride in a nice car
Even though I want to dress you in nice clothes
Even though I want to take you to nice places

This hand that I put inside my pocket grabs nothing
How can I get you
My position doesn’t suit you
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

Even if you say it’s okay
Even if you say it’s okay if I have you
Even if you say you’re happy everyday
Even if you say you don’t what anything more

Pretty, good things; fun, cool things
You obviously want to do these things too Baby
You know that if you stay by my side I can’t do these things
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

I only have this song
I really have nothing but this voice
I don’t know if this will make you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it
I hope you accept it


*2AM-This Song. Heavy rotation, hehe...
Dragonfly stopped by on my hand as I was looking out for a breather from this feeling... Life gives u something and takes away something...

Callused Heart

I'm nervous,
counting the hours till i see you again,
looking out the window,
where we sat to watch the same star...
my heart feels...
you may be miles away,
but i see the same side of the moon,
throughout time,
i've been watching u...
letting your smile serenade my heart...
wish i could keep that moment,
moments that will keep me close to you...
and though you'll never see,
all the tears shine through,
i know i cant be that far from you,
if we're looking at the same star...


Its a hibiscus actually, geneticallymodified with sonyericsson's pic editor.
*Delta goodrem feat brian mcfadden-almost here

Brunei Chicken Rice

Usually gave them birds some rice to feed on.

Its very cool to watch them fly by, making loud tweeting sounds as they square off over the food.

And just found out, there are no crows (burung gagak) in Brunei. Hehe... I think the ones we have here are called starlings.

Death Cab For The Cutie-i will follow you into the dark